The drama of Iniesta, the evil inside: “I hugged my wife but it was like hugging a pillow”

Andres Iniesta talks about the abyss of his life: “The best time of the day was when I was taking the pills”.

Andres Iniesta at 38 he is still under contract with Vissel Kobe in Japan, even if his last match dates back to last August, which raises some doubts about a career that could calmly be interrupted in advance of the conclusion of the contract set for January 31, 2024. After all, ‘El Mago’ has given everything he had in football, receiving in exchange the unconditional love of the fans – not just those of the Barcelonabut anyone who loves beauty in sport – and a showcase full of the most prestigious trophies: 9 championships and 4 Champions in the Blaugrana jersey, two Europeans and a World Cup with Spain.

And yet from football there was also great pain for Iniesta, the death of Espanyol player Dani Jarquefound lifeless from cardiac arrest at the age of 26 in the summer of 2009, while he was in training camp in Coverciano with the Spanish club. He was a lifelong friend to Don Andres, the impact of the story on him was devastating. Iniesta was at the peak of his career, but from that moment nothing was the same for him: the dark evil began to devour him and ended up in the tunnel of depression.

It was a terrible time in his life, which he returned to talk about recently in the podcast ‘The Wild Project’: “When I was battling depression, the best time of the day was when I was taking pills and going to bed. I had lost the will to live. I was hugging my wife, but it was like hugging a pillow“.

Iniesta feels better today, but he always goes to therapy anyway: “I keep doing this because I need to fix myself. In time, life teaches you that depression and mental illness can affect anyone. I am happy when I see that sportsmen are talking about these topics. It’s not about material things, I can have all the cars in the world and everything I want, but it’s always hard to deal with life’s problems“.

Andres Iniesta with the Vissel Kobe captain's armband

Andres Iniesta with the Vissel Kobe captain’s armband

In the past Iniesta had already talked about the subject, with words that had given exactly the meaning of the deep emptiness into which he had fallen: “When I learned that Dani was dead, it was like being hit by a very strong punch that sent me to the ground, I felt myself sinking. I know it’s hard to understand when you have it all, but I’ve been destroyed. I saw everything black and the more the days passed, the worse I felt. In situations like this you don’t feel anything, I couldn’t wait for the night to come to take a pill and sleep“.

Even more dramatic was the testimony of Iniesta’s father, José Antonio: “When your 25-year-old son comes to see you at midnight and tells you he wants to sleep with his parents, you know that something is wrong. He told me that he was not well and that he didn’t know why“. Terrible moments, fortunately now they are just a memory.

Iniesta happy today with his family

Iniesta happy today with his family

The drama of Iniesta, the evil inside: “I hugged my wife but it was like hugging a pillow”